There’s a very low chance you’ll read this, since you’re petty and blocked me on all social media. So I’m approaching this more like a therapeutic exercise (something I’ve utilized OTF for before).
But anyways, I’m still pissed. Still hurt. I don’t think about you much, but your absence from my life is definitely noticeable at times. Like Halloween. I definitely associate Halloween with you in a big way. Remember how we used to go trick-or-treating together every year? Me, you, your little brother, our dads. The perfect crew. We had the neighborhood down to a science. And then we’d come back to my house to watch It’s the Great Pumpkin, Charlie Brown and laugh at Pigpen’s dirty ass saying, “How’d you know it was me?”
Yeah, it’s hard not to smile when I think about allllllllll the memories we have. Which is why I don’t understand how you could throw it all away. Like…what was the point? At this stage in our lives, isn’t consistency what we’re all looking for? Think of all the people our age who wish they could say they have twenty year long friendships. I have no interest in ending any of my friendships…why did you feel the need to?
What could possibly be so awful about me? It really hurts that you KNEW I was already feeling down about myself thanks to family drama, and yet you still chose that time to suddenly end our friendship over text. How is that supposed to make me feel? I’ll tell you—it makes me feel like you didn’t care about me at all. But I think there was something more at play. You let your own jealousy and your own insecurity warp your mind into thinking I was the problem when really, it’s you. I think you need help, and I sincerely hope you get it. But I’m not sympathetic. What you did was cruel, and I can’t fathom how you ever thought it was acceptable or appropriate. I just wish I knew…the logic. I wish I could understand. But I’m pretty sure it’s all irrational, anyway.
After meeting Mike, I thought I would never have my heart broken again; I was wrong. Throughout my life, I felt more connected to you than to almost anyone else. That being said, I’m kind of surprised at how easy it is to not have you in my life now…maybe that’s because the way you made your exit made me so mad. Whatever. It’s over. But—clearly—I still feel some type of way about it. I hope you find what you’re looking for. Stay well.
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Aimée’s Pick: Christmas Catalogs
It’s that time of the year! Not quite Christmastime, in my opinion, but definitely time to start your Christmas shopping. You know those catalogs that just mysteriously show up in your mailbox at this time of year? Have you ever actually taken the time to look through them? I’m here to tell you that…it’s worth it! They have some good stuff in there! Just the other day, I dog-eared a page with a rotating puzzle/game board that I’m strongly considering getting for myself (or asking for) for Christmas. Fight the urge to put these trashy-looking catalogs straight in the recycle bin. You never know what goodies you may find inside.
Show Your Support: Donors Choose
Donors Choose as a platform makes it easy for anyone to help a teacher in need. Their mission is to move us as a nation closer to the point where every student’s needs are met and great education is being had. Donors Choose is committed to leading with empathy to combat systemic racism and socioeconomic inequity in our school system. Since 2000, Donors Choose has supported over 5 million people and over 2 million classroom project requests that range from butterfly cocoons, to robotics kits, to books with diverse characters, and classroom basics like tables and chairs.
Donors Choose works simply: Find a classroom project that inspires you and give as little as $1—since Donors Choose is a public charity, all donations are tax-deductible! When the project is fully funded, Donors Choose purchases all the requested items and ships them directly to the teacher. Every donor gets a thank-you from the teacher, photos of the project in action, and a detailed report of how each dollar was spent.
For all the devil’s advocates out there (like myself) this totally does not take away from the horrible fact that our education system needs some serious reform and our teachers should not have to set up a donations page to get supplies. The system is wrong. But until it changes, we have the power to help those who can’t wait. And if you’re a teacher (like Aimée!), you and your classroom have the opportunity to get funded. Check out the teacher process here.
Daily Intention:
Today I will…
Say what I really feel.
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